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Mngmnt
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So I've decided I need to focus more on myself. No. Not in a cliche or selfish way. I need to focus on my self awareness and growth. When I started dating its like my sense of self growth hit a wall and I was too focused on things I thought were important and forgot a lot of the basic things I should have been worrying about. They were the things that affected our relationship the most. Love makes you see the world kind of funny sometimes.
I want to become a better me, for myself; For the amazing woman I'll find myself with, and really bettering myself for the world. The more I can seek new perspectives, integrate them into my life, push myself outside my comfort zone, and come back to my center; Experience new things, Learn new things, the more I can grow as an individual, attract a higher quality of relationships and create a relationship with someone that inspires me and forces me to grow & become a better version of myself; Actualize my talent and turn it into a strength. And use that to contribute to creating a better life for myself and my future relationships.
I know I always seem to get off track. "Don't let a women screw you up" as my friends would say. lol. I know its easy to find yourself running around "sealing the dam" in a relationship and forget the core system that you were working on long before you were ever with, said, girl. Sometimes I think its a plot to see how many things you can juggle before you end up breaking under pressure. *smiles laughingly* All I know is that I should have remembered that there's nothing a man can fix in a relationship besides how he treats his woman and how he reacts to the world around him. Everything else comes from elsewhere or doesnt matter.
From now on there are a lot of things that from the core have to continue to build. One of them being, there's no situation that has the capability of affecting me one way or the other. Only I have the power to affect my own decisions. If I live a just life, do things that I feel are right, and dont allow what others expect of me to change me I will be doing the right thing. For as long as I grow to better myself I will be following the path I choose. Not the path that someone else wishes I go. I will grow at my own pace and communicate that to anyone who expresses concern for me. If I seem to be lacking in one area of my life, its probably because Im working on it or working on another area that seems to be limiting me moreso than the other.
I choose to grow.
What do you choose?
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